It's been a while since my last post, so here is my life from then. I went to some movies and then (to fast forward) i was at a friends house while his wife was getting ready to divorce him and throw him out of the house for cheating on her for the 5th time (that we know of) so that was pretty harsh but I found out latter that the only reason I was there was to make sure my friend Jake didn't get beat up, meaning I was the muscle! which I thought was halarious. Then another person came to me a few days later and told me that she was leaving her boyfriend but was going to do it in stages, because everything she owned was in his name. She is going to do it over a period of time, but has fully made the decision to leave. I asked her why? She said that they've been dating for 3.5 years and she wants to get married. Which is fair enough but doesn't feel secure in him doing so because if he hasn't made the commitment yet then he most likely won't. Which is also fair, my response was if he walked through the door with a ring would you still leave and she said yes "my mind is made up". My next question to her was when are you going to leave and she said one month. I asked if she still loved him or cared about him and her answer shocked me... she said no! So to my understanding she is a Christian, who is living with her boyfriend (just a side not this is not good) so she is going to keep living with him while not caring for him and letting him believe that she does (another side not this is what we call lying by ommision also not good) so I prayed about the situation and asked God what to do? Should I tell him or should I leave it alone. The problem is I like to be a straight shooter and tell people how it is, the problem part is that people tell me that im to abbrasive and to critical. So a new problem arises do I tell him flat out or do I do what I've worked my whole personality around (no bush beating or ass powdering just tell it like it is, the truth is the truth) So I prayed more ,well God I want to help and want to tell him but it could be bad. That night I looked into the mirror and realized I could not see my balls (this doesn't happen offen, I don't look for my balls but in this case its a metaphor for being a man) mainly because I had pants on and no x-ray glasses which would come in handy but not as a professed Christian. But im off track so I have no manhood which is not me, and so I thought about what was happening in my life. I went to bed thinking and praying and asked for a an opportunity. Well it came 5 hours later when my buddy phoned me and said he needed help doing some stuff for about an hour just me and him, thank God. So I told him that I was concerned. That as his girlfriend had told me this info I was shaken as well as repulsed that she would do this as a Christian (he isn't) to be premeditated to break up with him and live with him at the same time just not tell him it was over. So I did apologize to him that if I had over steped my bounds I was very, very sorry but I felt he had to know. It led to a good conversation about God. He asked me if God tests me and I replied, all the time and then he asked what I would do in this situation, so I got to give him my 2 cents. It was nice to speak into someones life that left them with life and hope (something I have been working on). So to make a short story long I thank God every day for the situations he is using me in. How do I get into these situations? Well there part of my prayer life, not that I would meddle in other peoples affairs but that when things happen to people, God would use me to convey Him in a loving manner and let me tell ya (who ever is reading this your "ya" sorry but its true, the truth hurts but you'll get over it) theres nothing better than being used by God. Its that point when your soul realizes your purpose in life is being fulfilled, what fullfillment? Doing Gods will there is no greater feeling or task.