So i got called a racist today and legitmetly so. I saw someone get angered at racism and it was really good to see looking back on it but its also really hard to hear someone say it because of me when i didn't even notice what i had said. They were right to call me on it and i appreciated it, even though it was a little bit of racism it was still racism and its good that he didn't tollerate it. I hope the day never comes when he has to feel the amount or severity of racism iv faced but if he does i would love to see him have the same reaction and he said "there is no room for it ever". He is totally right, to tell you the truth i got angry when i got home that he called me on something so small but i was only angry because i was a little embarassed and in comparison to what iv seen or had directed at me he has no clue what it feels like but in all honesty that little bit was enough for him to be upset and thats ok its better that we could talk about it right away and get it out of the way. All that aside i had a business card made and i really like it i think people might see it as vain becasue there is a picture of me on it but thats how it turned out and if you come to my house there is not a lot of pictures of me growing up and i always hated that all the memories of my life my parents never cared to have there all in my head so when someone takes a picture of me i want it becasue i don't have very many so it put one on the card because it one of rare good ones of me i feel so i like it.

Well its monday wing night I love wing night. Jeremy is out of town so i'll see if my big name principal works iv seen it work before so i know it does, but what man goes to war saying i have enough amoe! you can always use more right? i'm saying right like im talking to someone but im talking to myself. Well my friend just got really mad at me which was kinda funny but he was valid by getting mad at the same time. I told him in the form of a question (if that makes sense) that the topic of medicating people with mental conditions can be a good thing and he said a response and i replied by saying that is a assumetion but i meant to say, is that an assumption and he kind freaked out and then started swearing which was the funny part. But he made a good point which i have always feared (not fearing that he could ever make a good point) which is how i come across as a know it all. I hate that and I try my best to not come across that way but it doesn't seem to be working, so i think im at a bit of a loss. But thats fine i guess im glad he told me and i can always use improvement, it kinda sucks that he had to get pissed to tell me because that makes me think he's been bottling it in for a while which is not good so im glad he spit it out. And yes i do know it all and am right 100% of the time and im also superman...deep.

I'm here again for myself to read i haven't given this blog out to anyone so i haven't expected anyone to write anything. Yesterday i went to the youth all nighter and had some of the most fun in my life, why? I played a game were i got to shoot kids with a paint ball gun while they ran through our relay course. Some of the brighter kids decided to run with there shirts off in zero degree weather. I think they got hit the most, white kids running with no shirts on in the dark were really easy to spot. The fun part was i hit one kid (his name shoes and i have no clue why) in the nuts and a paint ball square in the belly button man..... that kid was in some pain and i couldn't stop laughing it was such a great night. I also hit another kid in the nuts but his was less painful i hear. The kicker was i accidentally hit my buddy shooter Clint, i was shooting at one kid and shot to far and hit Clint. I told the two relay teams about it and they died laughing but i guess Clint didn't think it was as funny. What he did think was funny was that he left the paint balls in his car before the game and they froze. So we had to wait for them to thaw out so we made the kids run the course thinking they were good and not get hit (we never told them our hoppers were empty) they thought we "really sucked" at shooting then we checked the paint balls outside of Deans new truck and Clint decided to squeeze one of the balls until it burst but never told us, so it blew and went into everyones face. I turned realizing what would happen but the others (Jill, Chad and Clint himself) all got as close as they could to see what would happen and it went in all there faces and on my back. So Clint thought that was really funny as we all left to go to the bathroom to wash the paint off. I was ok it was on my cloths but Chad and Jill took it right in the face and Jill got it in her eye. She washed it out and was ok but Chad wasn't happy to say the least. There was a lot of laughing and fun while we ate pizza and listend to a band called the left they were pretty good. Other than that brief moment of Clints moment of wounder the night was great, i hope they ask me to help out again....man id be there in a heart beat.

Well here it is the first post of my postings who will read it i have no clue. If you read this i hope you enjoy it. So..... feel free to add any time you like